I’m sorry. If you’ve come here to read a semi-deep thought or something witty, you have my sincere apologies. (If you find anything that shows up in either of those categories, let me know–it was purely unintentional.)
Right now I feel like I have a few plates spinning in the air like one of those amazing Chinese acrobatic jugglers. The thing is I’m not even really good at catch. Juggling is beyond my abilities. It’s for those with good hand-eye coordination. The closest I’ve ever gotten to that is average hand-mouth coordination. Nevertheless, there are plates in the air, and it’s my job to keep them spinning up there–not crashing down here.
I’m out of my comfort zone . . . out of my league. I’m working on logistics for meetings I’ll host at the end of the week. I’m pulling a myriad of information from emails about prayer requests for TCKs to be shared in a chapel I’m in charge of the same day the meetings start. I need to put together a very short PowerPoint for that chapel, too. I’m looking over new lesson plans for my summer program. The emails with the prayer requests opened some great dialogue with some parents. I found out today I need to do a mini get-to-know you type interview with a potential colleague. I have a few other meetings. Oh yeah—and there’s laundry and those daily kinds of things.
I look at the list and I think, “That’s not so bad.” In some ways it’s not. I can answer the questions arriving in my inbox fairly easily. I can evaluate lesson plans without much stress. Laundry is a piece of cake when there’s nothing else to do. I can do PowerPoints without breaking a sweat. The logistics thing seems to be the key plate. If that one falls, everything else falls. That’s where I’m working outside of my comfort zone.
So, I’m sorry if you took the time to read this and found nothing substantial here. My apologies. If you’re a praying person, please pray for me. Some of these plates have great eternal significance. I realize I’m only responsible for my part, not the whole of anything, but I still need strength and focus from God to do my part well. Some sleep might help, too.
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5 responses to “Apologies”
you are a better juggler than you give yourself credit for. especially when god is helping you. i have seen you in action. relax~~ you got this. i will be praying though. btw, what ever happened with the male intern situation? do i get a commission for my recommendation? or was it no help at all? 🙂 missed you at the sunrise service….
Praying wth you this week. I just remembered one of my plates last night. It was about to crash (well, it’s a translation project due May 15… Only 50 pages of ethical/theological stuff to translate from English to French!!). I think I know what you mean. Mom’s here, so lots of the “normal stuff” gets put on hold, even unintentionally.
I love you.
Soul
Thanks for the vote of confidence–and the prayer—especially the prayer, Judy. Yeah—I couldn’t make my teleporter work Sunday morning, so I got in my car and went to my church here where we did not sing “In Christ Alone.” Stupid teleporter. yes! You get a commission! Everything just got approved late yesterday afternoon. 😀
Soul, thanks for praying! It’s good of God to remind you of soon to crash plates. Perhaps Mom can occupy the kids for a while so you can translate? It must be good to see her face everyday. Do her an ‘ug for me.
Hey Soul Sister, I am praying for you right now. You can’t do this by yourself, but you can do it with Him. And He knows exactly how it will all play out. Keep breathing and trusting in Him. And oh yeah, maybe take a nap under your desk. 🙂
Hey, Hey! Thanks for intervening for me. I’m breathing and trusting and missing you. Can’t wait to see you when you get back.